mercurialkiss asked:

Has anyone ever referred to you as a "tortured genius"? What's your stance on the term? Do you believe that one must have a mental illness in order to create truly deep and worthwhile music/writing/art? Just something I've been pondering myself lately

justincourtneypierre:

I don’t think so, but then again I’ve never cared to ask, nor would I pay any attention to it if they do. I think having any sort of affliction (be it mental or otherwise) and being able to be creative either through that, because of that, or in order to deal with that, is a great and positive thing.

Sadly, I think it is insinuated that you are thought of as less than if there is something about you that isn’t “normal” or doesn’t function in the “normal” way. This is a giant bummer and I call shenanigans on that. I don’t know if there is anything wrong with me now and I stopped caring to find out what it might have been years ago. I choose to define what I may or may not have as, “Idiosyncrasies.” This allows me to move on and simply exist.

I am no expert. But I can tell you this: It took me 20+ years to deal with my shit and it wasn’t until I let go and stopped trying to define things that things started getting really good. I may or may not be bipolar, have crippling panic attacks, and exhausting OCD. I may or may not be an alcoholic. I made a decision to turn my life around and set about it slowly, day after day, step by grueling step, over the course of several years. I don’t know when it changed or how it changed, but it did and it is of no concern to me how that happened or what it all means.

I apologize. I tend to veer all over the place when trying to be concise in a short amount of time. These are my rambling thoughts.

To get back on point, I believe that anyone can create. There is no prerequisite. If you happen to have something different about you, whatever that is, I say use it. Tom Waits had a great quote that I am about to butcher. He said something to the effect of, “My favorite singers and artists are the ones who took that thing about them that seemed like a liability and turned it into an asset.”

I was a shy kid with asthma and a stuttering problem form Mahtomedi, MN. Yet somehow I made that work for me.

li0nsback:

imagine liking someone who:

  • wasn’t out of your league
  • wasn’t miles away
  • was single
  • actually liked you

woah imagine

Kink chute

Expectations are seldom met.

loose

limber

floaty

The L Word

love

This is how it feels to act before you think

take this freeness, this openness, this authentic, real shots vega eyes heavy filming in the morning traveling alone don’t fuck it up Rupaul eyelids heavy don’t worry don’t cry don’t feel bad don’t worry I already wrote that I wish I could real authentic love~~usually sloppy chill I don’t know what I feel chill properly chill probably us kill us is he swimming yeah she’s just a kid these are the things that resonate Stephanie Stefanie Sorry hmm try feel sorry okay words I like them positive trying I don’t mean to copy to vegas vegas Cristina thanks tommy nickle s quarters & pennies you did it didn’t you? I was saving this for later. Where the fuck are you? I don’t feel like I feel disconnected from my body. Alex. First Christmas Jewish. I don’t feel good though writing w/o intention is easy I don’t feel good though, okay? Let it out. words that resonate. Oh no they’re in the center ring. All’s we gotta do is climb the stairs. Can’t describe how I feel. Can’t stop writing. Can’t start writing. Jenny. Craig. Reina. shh can’t talk must not talk must not be afraid fears these are my fears alone sorry can’t stop breathing change words afraid to pick up the pen Oh shit oh no deep Afraid to speak can’t speak Afraid to fall Please don’t disappoint. Must go to sleep before I fuck up. because they probably gave me too much. words changing meaning what should we do? Brilliance authenticityy fucked up writers fucked up.

Scared

Oh no.

I picked up the pen.

Crying.

Laughter.

Shit should sleep should go to sleep cann write yes but ordinary words rewriting can’t focus on form no format just riding the train & the train is speeding always trains always moving Afraid to do anything others Finding & writing words but still can’t find them.

I’m done now I think.

If only all this writing were worth something

If only

If only

If only

This is how the poets became famous?

shouldn’t write that

Oh man

Oh shit

Copycat Copycat copycat

Be original

No method

just sadness

afraid

want girlfriend

blunt

basic

uninhibited

can’t say other wise

other wise

Oh shit

I get it now

~~~

Done.

Sleep

now.

Help.

osjecam:

sorry i’m late, professor. im disenchanted with the human experience and waking up every morning thrusts me into an instant existential crisis

wnycradiolab:

National Geographic “Pictures We Love” 

When David Guttenfelder showed us the pictures he shot for “Last Song for Migrating Birds,” a story about how poachers coat tree branches with glue to trap migrating songbirds, I was horrified.
Who would want to eat a sweet little oriole? And how could there possibly be enough meat to make the effort worthwhile? It would be one thing if people need the birds to subsist, but that’s mostly not the case­­. These birds are considered delicacies that people pay a lot of money for.
So when David projected this image of a man with the wing of a blackcap in his lips, I braced myself for a gruesome story about how the man ate the bird live. Instead, David told us, the man was actually a conservationist sucking the sticky sap from the wings of a bird that had been stuck in a glue trap.

wnycradiolab:

National Geographic “Pictures We Love”

When David Guttenfelder showed us the pictures he shot for “Last Song for Migrating Birds,” a story about how poachers coat tree branches with glue to trap migrating songbirds, I was horrified.

Who would want to eat a sweet little oriole? And how could there possibly be enough meat to make the effort worthwhile? It would be one thing if people need the birds to subsist, but that’s mostly not the case­­. These birds are considered delicacies that people pay a lot of money for.

So when David projected this image of a man with the wing of a blackcap in his lips, I braced myself for a gruesome story about how the man ate the bird live. Instead, David told us, the man was actually a conservationist sucking the sticky sap from the wings of a bird that had been stuck in a glue trap.


"I think a lot of actors need validation. If you see truly amazing actors perform, they expose themselves to such an incredible degree. You can really see their pain." - Alex Kingston

"I think a lot of actors need validation. If you see truly amazing actors perform, they expose themselves to such an incredible degree. You can really see their pain." - Alex Kingston