“I hate myself a little more every day.” (r.i.d)
Adele Dazeem, meet Heidi Blickenstaff
imagine liking someone who:
- wasn’t out of your league
- wasn’t miles away
- was single
- actually liked you
I’m scared as hell to want you. But here I am, wanting you anyway.
Expectations are seldom met.
The L Word
This is how it feels to act before you think
take this freeness, this openness, this authentic, real shots vega eyes heavy filming in the morning traveling alone don’t fuck it up Rupaul eyelids heavy don’t worry don’t cry don’t feel bad don’t worry I already wrote that I wish I could real authentic love~~usually sloppy chill I don’t know what I feel chill properly chill probably us kill us is he swimming yeah she’s just a kid these are the things that resonate Stephanie Stefanie Sorry hmm try feel sorry okay words I like them positive trying I don’t mean to copy to vegas vegas Cristina thanks tommy nickle s quarters & pennies you did it didn’t you? I was saving this for later. Where the fuck are you? I don’t feel like I feel disconnected from my body. Alex. First Christmas Jewish. I don’t feel good though writing w/o intention is easy I don’t feel good though, okay? Let it out. words that resonate. Oh no they’re in the center ring. All’s we gotta do is climb the stairs. Can’t describe how I feel. Can’t stop writing. Can’t start writing. Jenny. Craig. Reina. shh can’t talk must not talk must not be afraid fears these are my fears alone sorry can’t stop breathing change words afraid to pick up the pen Oh shit oh no deep Afraid to speak can’t speak Afraid to fall Please don’t disappoint. Must go to sleep before I fuck up. because they probably gave me too much. words changing meaning what should we do? Brilliance authenticityy fucked up writers fucked up.
I picked up the pen.
Shit should sleep should go to sleep cann write yes but ordinary words rewriting can’t focus on form no format just riding the train & the train is speeding always trains always moving Afraid to do anything others Finding & writing words but still can’t find them.
I’m done now I think.
If only all this writing were worth something
This is how the poets became famous?
shouldn’t write that
Copycat Copycat copycat
can’t say other wise
I get it now
All of us, at some point in life, choose our cliché.
Jerry Stahl, Pain Killers (via booknarcs)
sorry i’m late, professor. im disenchanted with the human experience and waking up every morning thrusts me into an instant existential crisis
When David Guttenfelder showed us the pictures he shot for “Last Song for Migrating Birds,” a story about how poachers coat tree branches with glue to trap migrating songbirds, I was horrified.
Who would want to eat a sweet little oriole? And how could there possibly be enough meat to make the effort worthwhile? It would be one thing if people need the birds to subsist, but that’s mostly not the case. These birds are considered delicacies that people pay a lot of money for.
So when David projected this image of a man with the wing of a blackcap in his lips, I braced myself for a gruesome story about how the man ate the bird live. Instead, David told us, the man was actually a conservationist sucking the sticky sap from the wings of a bird that had been stuck in a glue trap.
Typewriter Series #99
"I think a lot of actors need validation. If you see truly amazing actors perform, they expose themselves to such an incredible degree. You can really see their pain." - Alex Kingston
Carlos Ruiz Zafón, The Shadow of the Wind